Finding Beauty Instead of Depression

Friday, I started feeling depressed;  so, I asked myself, "Why did I feel that way, and what did I want to do about it?".  If you deal with chronic illness of any type, you are probably not a stranger to depression, so it probably doesn't sound odd to you. 

I was also reminded that not everyone understands.   Earlier in the week, being told that I seem preoccupied with my illness didn't go over too well with me.  Have you ever tried to explain something about your illness, and you got the message you would feel better if you didn't think about it or talk about it?  What other people don't realize is you would do something to get better if you could.  Maybe, you are doing all you can do now.  

It is depressing when you are disgusted with the situation you are in.  It is a definite downer when you are reminded of the things you used to do, and now it takes so much energy, you wonder if you can gain ground.  You may feel stuck in a terrible rut.  You may want to kick yourself and say, "Get up!  Do something about this."
  

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I was there this week.  Kicking myself would have accomplished nothing.  I did not want to do anything.    Even, my own blogs looked depressing to me.  It's OK to laugh.  When I get depressed, I can be so pitifully affected by some things. So, what did I do?  I started looking at the faces of cheery looking blogs.  I decided to change something I could change.  What I did is not exactly what I had in mind, but it works for me. I made a new header and found a new background for this blog.  I am going to see whether or not I take to it.  And, if I don't, I may do something by hand with minor use of the computer. 

Tomorrow, I plan to do something that takes more action than sitting in a chair.  I think I am out of my rut.  I hope.   Also, I am very happy that everyday is a new day.  There is always hope for a better tomorrow.  

God bless you all, and I hope you have a great week.

Deborah   xoxo